Self-awareness

Sisterhood of the World Bloggers Award

Writing and reading are collaborative acts in the making and performance of space-time. Readers participate; they become, partly, writers. The reader is its co-creator. – David Morley

Hi everyone! I’ve been nominated for the Sisterhood of the World Bloggers Award by my one and only ‘Superfan’ 🙂 – Gypsyess, blogger at Wonder Of My Worlds. I only started this blog barely 3 months now so you can imagine my surprise and excitement to hear Stella say she nominated me for a world bloggers award. I was elated to say the least. Not only has her steady readership been a huge encouragement to me, it has also inspired me every time I’m about to write a new piece…I think about Stella and I say to myself, what freshness can I bring Stella’s way today? Or whenever I’m down and not feeling like my blogging is making any difference, I remember the generosity in her comments about how she is learning a lot from my musing.

If you are a writer, you would understand how these little drops here and there can make our stream gush and bubble. They are the only reason why we keep writing, because someone somewhere is feeding off our energy and is being illuminated from inside out because of our train of thought. There is no better reward for a writer.

So thank you Stella for taking the time to read, thank you for your generous comments, they hang like little medals on my computer desktop and my vision board. Thank you for your lavish and unselfish gesture of reblogging a few of my posts and thank you for nominating me for the Sisterhood of the Worlds Bloggers Award. You are just awesome! And that is an understatement. I hope that someday soon, the travel bug will cause our paths to cross. Oh, now that would be awesome!

Since I’m expected to nominate people as well, here are mine; first I will like to nominate Wonders Of My World, Stella’s blog – as far as I am concerned, she is the worlds most generous reader and writer, and since writers cannot exist without the reader, then Stella is indeed a blessing to us writers and I am a living testimony. Again if you are a dreamer like myself and you believe that dreams do come true then you should seriously visit Wonders Of my Worlds. It embodies true tales of a dreamer who has had a taste of what it means to live her dreams. And she is still dreaming. I can’t wait to see what part of the world she would be landing next 🙂

My second nomination goes to Marc & Angel Hack Life – www.marcandangel.com . They are my muse. A friend of mine recommended them when I newly started this blog and I haven’t been disappointed. If you surf through my blog you will find a few quotes from Marc & Angel. They write about self-development matters to put it simply and I tell you no one does it better. The happily married couple reach out to thousands daily and the impact they are having is such an inspiration. I want to be like them when I grow up 🙂 Visit Marc & Angel for all your self-help matters and be sure to bring home with you a lifted spirit.

I will now go on to answer the 10 questions required for nominees:

1. What inspires you most to write?

Everything. My joys, my sorrows, my victories, my failures, life’s pleasures and backlashes. Above all, my walk with God. His mercies, his kindness, his favors, his goodness, his grace, and his righteousness. I’m inspired by how I am experiencing this beautiful life God has given me to live for as long as He’s given me to live it.


2. What it your favorite thing to do in the entire world?

LOL. My favorite thing to do in the entire world is to travel & to write. I believe very strongly that the one cannot go without the other. And even though I have managed, all these years, to survive with the other i.e. with writing only, I am certain beyond all reasonable doubt that it is only a matter of time before the ‘one’ starts to unfold. After writing, my second most happiest thing to do in the world, is traveling. Like I said earlier. I am a dreamer. And I do believe dreams come through.

3. If you could travel anywhere in our beautiful world, where would it be?

That is a tough question to answer. I am torn between Rome and the city of love. Torn between pasta and fine living. Torn between the coliseums and the Tower Eiffel. If I have to choose, I guess it would be Rome.

4. What is your favorite book?

I’ve read many books in my lifetime but my favorite still remains “A Voice in the Wind” by Francine Rivers. I’m yet to read a book or any story for that matter that has moved my heart and soul like this book did. And it was there I first met Rome in person.  I’ve been hooked ever since with curiosity and deep interest. The story is a trilogy – A Voice in the Wind, An Echo in the Darkness & As Sure as the Dawn. Set in Rome, Ephesus, and ancient Germanic settlement.

5. What are you most proud of?

So far so good. This blog is my most prestigious achievement. It is one thing to say you’re a writer and it is another thing entirely to actually write. Secondly, it is one thing to say you are something and it is another thing to be that thing to the world, and then actually give off that essence and touch lives with it. This blog has given me all of that meaning in one.

6. How has your blog helped you most?

My blog has helped me to overcome my fears; my fear of not being sure if I’m good enough. My fear of ‘do I make sense’, am I making sense’, will I be heard, will I communicate, will I touch someone, and if I did, will they be better for it? I never found answers to these questions until I started this blog and that was when I truly embraced life as a writer.

7. What is your favorite childhood memory?

My favorite childhood memory was when I wrote and completed a fully illustrated book of short-stories inspired by Enid Blyton’s mini series. It was the first book I ever authored though never published. Hahaha. I took the book to boarding house one term and I would later regret it. It was the last I would see of it. It would have been such a treasured childhood souvenir had I left it in my mum’s care. I was only 8 when I wrote that book.

8. What is your biggest passion?

My biggest passion is writing. It is how I relate with myself and the world. And sometimes, it is how I talk with God.

9. Your favorite food?

My favorite food is spaghetti and all kinds of noodle food. There’s no doubt about that.

10. What is your favorite quote?

Okay this is a tough one. I have over a thousand in archive. It is hard to say. I have several that speak straight to my heart. I will like to share one on here

“Do not free a camel of the burden of his hump; you may be freeing him from being a camel.” ― G.K. Chesterton

 

In closing, I will like to thank Mariam Thompson at thecandidspot.wordpress.com and Kate&James at monkeypalmtree.com who both nominated Stella who nominated me. Thanks you ladies. You are all awesome sisters of my blogging worlds!!

 

And gracias to all my awesome readers. You are  co-creators of my musings. 🙂 🙂 xoxo

A Pursuit of Purpose

Standing at the center of nowhere
With eyes on a target that only the mind can see
Sniffing out a lingering scent only the heart can smell
From a place the feet has never been yet the soul recognizes
A path never before traveled yet so familiar
I follow an intimate trail from my future
My senses, I find, are perfectly au courant with my trackway
Knowing where to turn and how not to swing
What bliss, even the dead-ends are a Godsend
Then the night comes, when physical sight fails me
Nevertheless, I am guarded along the path of purpose
Steadily and steadfastly, I listen for that still small voice

Gratitude

Thank you for who I am
I have come to believe that I am beautiful
Bold and strong

Thank you for my problems
They have helped to toughen my gut
I realize they only last a short while

Thank you for my wins
Now I know that nothing really is beyond me
Now I can look any mountain in the face without retreat

Thank you for my family
I find that they feed me with so much hope
It is indeed a blessing not to be alone in the world

Thank you for my gifts
Life is a lot more exciting because I can make a difference
I find that no matter how old, I am daily revivified by my purpose

Legacy

Of all the things I will like to be remembered by
Wisdom surpasses them all
An infinite flow of crystal soundness
Just a simple thought
That life is beautiful
And that it must be lived fully
With sheer wonder and with grace
That weakness is no sin
So long as it doesn’t become an excuse, cancerous
That strength isn’t redemption
Nonetheless it is a badge of honor
That true victory lies in overcoming one’s fear
Just as our true enemy isn’t the mortal next door
Rather it is a stealth darkness lurking within us
That in our greatest fear lies our greatest power
And that being our ability to not only love, but
Also be consumed by love in complete surrender
And it is this reality that weakens us
The knowledge of our inevitable vulnerability
Being our ability to surpass our humanity
A certitude that cripples us with great fear
And mangles our human capacity beyond reparation
So that rather than becoming superior beings we turn less human
We surrender to fear instead of love
We are subdued by darkness when we could be absorbed by light
Yet we are powerful beyond measure
Immortals dwelling in mortal suits
This is sound wisdom
This is what I would like to remembered by
That in the end, I overcame my fears

Where does this road lead?

I race the great expanse
A great stallion, graceful yet strong and dauntless
I can hear my heartbeat, my muscles crunching
As my hooves pound the raw earth seeking an invasion
Thirsty for blood
As I encounter the great sea
I fall to the ground writhing in great agony, my body mangles,
As my hairy skin morphs into a streamlined hairless form
And a horizon tail fin replaces my long hairy tail
I dive for the rising tides and the gulls and cormorants flee for dear life
I arrive the great mountains
And a great wave throws me on shore
I stand on two feet, a man, sturdy and muscular
I can feel the crystal pellets caressing my bulging veins
Curling my fingers into a tight fist, I race for the summit, a fastball
And in one instant, a panda, clawing the ascent, growling my triumph
The snowy peak rose against the blue of the cloudless sky
I can hear my growling echo in the distance
My heart swells within me, craving the endless expanse gaping above me
I am throw again into a tussle, and my distress is heard a thousand miles away
Humongous wings shoot out from my sides, ripping the flesh apart
A great cry splits my throat apart and an aquiline beak spirals out
As a flap my new wings the masses of shredded meat fall off unto rocky surface
With on great flap, I shoot for the blue yonder
I ascend the heavens, a great eagle
I spread my wings, I drink in the crispy sweetness
My search continues
And even though I am several light years away from earth
I think to myself, this is only the beginning

We are our own jinx

When we go after what we cannot have
When we insist on what is not ours
When we deliberately put ourselves in harms way
When we lay our bed with roses
When we keep returning to what is dead and buried
When we never forget what is done is done
When we give second chances to one-offs
When we try to mend broken mirrors
When we take a back seat
When we go back on our word
When we break a confidence
When we poison our own minds
When we go chasing shadows
When we pawn ourselves between the devil and the deep blue sea
When we break our own rules
When we make promises we can’t keep
When we think we can cheat ourselves out of our responsibilities
When we think we can cheat nature and get away with it
When we become our own god

IMAGINATION EQUALS IMAGE IN ACTION

Success in life is for those who are excited about where they’re going.  So find something that you love — something that gets you so excited you can’t wait to get out of bed in the morning.  That’s what life is all about. – Mark & Angel


How does one stay true to dreams? By knowing exactly what you are about. Last week, I had a chat with an acquaintance. I wanted to know why she did what she did for a living. Then in the process, I realized that she was still job hunting and was only working temporarily at her current job.

I went on to ask her what kind of job she wanted and the kind of interviews she answered. After talking a while I realized that her motivation to work was because she had a goal to run a department store for everyday clothing. Her face beamed as she talked about it and I believed her.

There is always something worth while to glean off someone with a dream. Sadly though, there are a few people who tend to feel weighed by a discussion that leans towards dreams, purpose and goals. Sometimes having a good job is as far as it goes, and maybe a few other businesses by the side as alternative sources of income.

So back to our first question; How does one stay true to themselves and pursue a dream that truly defines who they are and what they should be doing? If you have trouble finding answers to what makes you happy or gives your life excitement, you can start with observing where your day dreams take you.

Everyday there is someone you dream to be, or someone you imagine you would become someday. The danger is to dismiss it as fantasy, don’t! Call it fantasy, only don’t dismiss it just yet. Fantasy is usually a good place to start. Your little daydreams about the places you wish to go and the many unique things you wish to accomplish are like tiny drops that make an ocean.

Lean in to them and the next time you enter your imaginary wardrobe, try to bring back with you a drop or two of those fantasies and begin to see how you can weave them into your reality, one thread at a time. Use your imaginations as platforms for creativity.

Yes, the dream is a very big dream, and your fantasies are crazy laudable. It is the way fantasies go, they are usually a larger than life image. Remember, how do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.


Never give up on something that you can’t go a day without thinking about. – Mark & Angel

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IT IS THE TOUGH TIMES THAT MAKE LIFE WORTH LIVING

Good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience, and the worst days give you the best lessons. – Mark & Angel


Your life is like a book that you author alone and though you do not control the unfolding events, you control your role in them.

There was a time in my life when everything I held on to for so long began to slip from my grip and I could do nothing about it.

It felt as though I was going to lose my mind and I would cry myself to sleep. Eventually I had to let is go and move on.

Moving on wasn’t easy but I did it anyway. During that course of time, I met many obstacles along the way, a few that beat me severely, I cried in the open.

Some others where subtle, hiding beneath masking that soon wore off and I had to detour yet again.

It is easier now to talk about this here because I overcame. If I’d given in, fallen on my face and never gotten back to my feet, there would be no story to tell.

No lessons learnt and no victories won. I can talk about it only because I pulled through. Because I never gave up. Because I never cursed my darkest days.

I know that life is dotted with tough experiences, and so whatever happens I have decided to be comforted by that part of my history where the clouds were once darkest and bleakest.

I have learnt also to laugh through the most bizarre of experiences. Sometimes things can get to worse to ridiculous and the only thing left to do would be to laugh.

I have also found fortitude in prayer; form conversing with God and sharing my despair and drawing strength at the same time as I travelled along on my journey.

One tool that has helped me to literally count my blessings are my journals. In them are several accounts of where I’ve been, what I’ve seen and how each event has turned out.

Each time I read through the pages I am more than grateful to God for being there, just like he promised that he would. To never leave me nor abandon me. To be with me through deep waters and through the fire. To protect me from drowning and from burning.

My lessons would remain strong footholds in my life. Lessons like holding on to dreams, choosing your friends carefully, saying no anything that no longer defines me, walking away from negative people and relationships, staying true to my calling, and trusting my intuition.

Life lessons are priceless. They can never be bought,not with silver or with gold. They can only be acquired through tough times.


Laugh at the confusion, live consciously in the moment, and enjoy your life as it unfolds. Mark & Angel

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LET BYGONES BE BYGONES

The past cannot be changed, forgotten, or erased.  It can only be accepted. – Mark & Angel


Your past is one thing for sure; it is your past. It cannot be erased and it cannot be undone. It can only be accepted. No matter how much you try to explain yourself to people, you can never gain peace or satisfaction only a momentarily gain of having made people hear or see your point of view.

The deed has been done the only thing left is here and now. And what are you going to do with it? Are you going to spend it mourning and bitting your finger nails? Or are you going to seize this moment and do the right thing next time life presents you with crossroads?

You are not your mistakes, you are not your struggles, and you are here NOW with the power to shape your day and your future. – Mark & Angel

Most of our mistakes happened because we were blinded with self and a deep longing to be in control but we didn’t know that the greatest power we will ever muster is the power to stir ourselves aright. Our ability to take control of our own lives by manning our own decisions is the bravest and most courageous and not trying to control the will of others.

So let bygones be bygones. The best thing you can do to appease the past is to apologize, forgive, and move on. Anything else apart from these would be beating around the bush.

Don’t get stuck trying to fix the past that you miss out on your life in the present. Life is here and now. Live it with all the enthusiasm and positivity you can muster. Selah.


You might not be proud of all the things you’ve done in the past, but that’s okay.  The past is not today. – Mark & Angel

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SOMEONE SOMEWHERE LOVES YOU IN SPITE OF IT ALL

“That’s what people do who love you. They put their arms around you and love you when you’re not so lovable.”― Deb Caletti


The most memorable people in your life will be the ones who loved you when you weren’t very loveable.  Pay attention to who these people are in your life, and love them back, even when they aren’t acting lovable. – Mark & Angel

Today I want you to think about your life and see if there are any such people as mentioned in the quote above. Perhaps you can already count a couple and a faint smile is beginning to curve the corners of your lips.

I will like to try and bring to you attention a few people you may not consider as part of your list. Yet they are there, loving you helplessly and hopelessly. You probably don’t see them often or notice them enough to know how madly in love they are with you.

I am talking about your little niece and your little nephew, who literally worship the ground you walk on. They are hysterical and nuts whenever you are around and wont let you see the light of day because they want to tell you about the newest video game their dad has just downloaded for them.

I am talking about your loving siblings, the ones you constantly fight tooth and nail with every other week. There has never been a decent phone conversation between you guys. They are either pestering your life with their needs or with their presence. Visiting you when it is most inconvenient and you can’t wait for them to leave so you have your space back.

I am talking about your beloved dad, the one whose calls you  always avoide and the one with whom the best line of conversation was always about the stock exchange and how you won’t be staying home longer than a couple of days.

I am talking about your loving mother. The one you constantly send money to but never have any real conversation with and the only time you ring her phone is to tell her how sorry you are that you can’t be home for Christmas, yet again.

It is easy to loose sight of what matters especially when they are people very close to us, sometimes we go through many phases without speaking to members of our family. And it becomes normal because we believe the subtle lie that family is more of a burden than a joy. That family is far from perfect. Well, isn’t everyone else?

Today I want to remind you about the people who probably love you the dearest. I hope this is true for you. And if it is, begin to take deliberate action and start caring more for your family. They are the people who love you even when you aren’t lovable. Remember to return to the favor…


“I don’t care about whose DNA has recombined with whose. When everything goes to hell, the people who stand by you without flinching–they are your family.”― Jim Butcher

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